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    Monday, January 25th, 2010
    2:45 pm
    It's Been A While
    I haven't visited this site in ages. I'm sure no one that I know does anymore. So...today I decided to just write.

    The World IS My Oyster (although the road is no longer my home).

    It took me so long to settle into this new life of mine. The man, the house, the car, the job, the pets, just everything. And, at last, I feel like I have. I'm starting to be comfortable in my own skin again. Now, I have the opportunity to get back to my creative roots an really let my imagination sore.

    I met someone new, Shanna Farrow, who has inspired me greatly. We connected at the perfect time in each others lives. (I do believe.) I give her voice lessons. She's the lead singer of a blues band called Stacked House. I got attend a 3 hour practice yesterday. What a blast! I feel invigorated. Shanna says "Dream it. Do it!" And she is SO right. I needed a reminder.

    I had lunch with ADP this week. I'm planting seeds all over. I had show ideas. My dreams of new creative projects are coming to light.

    I feel excited and enlightened.

    World....here I come!
    Tuesday, June 19th, 2007
    12:08 am
    long time coming
    Wow...it's been a long time! Mostly, I just miss Candice. I miss MTC and spending the summer with CJ. I also really missing my mom and looking forward to my trip there in July.

    Trying to get my equity card is a long and tedious process. I told Jacob, if I was an artist, it might be like having to do 50 weeks of "connect-the-dots". Each day is another step in the right direction.

    I'm living on a shoestring budget and waiting for my insurance to kick in. I'll be glad to know, once and for all, that the lump I'm worried about it nothing more than that. A lump.

    Pinkerton opens tomorrow. Another rehearsal process through. Yea!
    Tuesday, February 20th, 2007
    1:39 am
    On the Road Again!
    For once...it is NOT me on the road. This time, the travelers are my two babies, Candice and Haus. I hope your trip is wonderful! I wish I could be there!!! XOXOXOXOXO
    Monday, February 19th, 2007
    10:21 pm
    Saved By the Bell
    Does anyone know where the phrase "saved by the bell" came from? No? I'll tell you!

    In the eighteen hundreds when people were buried, there was always a bell put inside the coffin. At that time, people weren't embalmed as they are today, therefore, people were sometimes buried alive. The bell in the coffin was there in case the deceased awoke from their slumber six feet under. Funny eh?

    Another thing...

    When congress was voting on the resolution on the Iraq war last week, guess who was not in attendance? John McCain! Nope. He didn't want his vote documented I suppose. Instead he was speaking in front of 1500 high school students. His speech encouraged the teens to "wait until marriage to begin having sex". REALLY?!?! THAT was more important than upholding your duties as an elected official of the US congress?? Interesting.
    Tuesday, February 6th, 2007
    11:35 pm
    Bigger in Texas
    They say everything
    is bigger in Texas
    it's silly,
    but i think it's true

    My ass grew
    three sizes
    from June to July

    My waistline
    grew a bit too


    Um...why I wrote this ridiculous piece of crap...we'll never know.
    Friday, February 2nd, 2007
    11:08 pm
    Meditate (song)
    I'm full...
    like my bladder
    when I've been
    workin'
    slave labor

    And tight...
    like my cunt
    when I've been
    sleeping alone

    Getting tired...
    like a whore
    havin' sex for
    her salvation

    Sick of shit...
    like the priest
    fuckin' boys
    in "God's home"

    don't hesitate...

    it's not too late...

    meditate.

    She's late...
    like her period,
    five days
    and an hour

    I hate...
    nothing more
    than hate itself
    and white power

    Take a break...
    like my back
    feeling
    thirty years older

    Stop to wait...
    like Repunzel
    just stuck in a tower

    don't hesitate...

    it's not too late...

    meditate.
    Wednesday, January 31st, 2007
    11:26 pm
    journaling
    Candice and I made resolutions to journal this year. I've been quite good about it up until now. It's been two days since my last entry. I left my journal in Texas and I'm with her in Oklahoma. I have to leave her tomorrow and I don't know when I'll see her again. Torture. All I want is for her to be in my everyday life. Is that too much to ask?
    Monday, November 20th, 2006
    8:25 am
    I wonder...
    "What will this day be like?
    I wonder...

    What will my future be?

    I wonder...

    It could be so exciting
    to be out in the world
    to be free

    My heart should be
    wildly rejoicing

    Oh...
    What's the matter
    with me

    I've always longed
    for adventure
    to do the things
    I never dared

    Now, here
    I'm facing adventure

    Then, why...
    am I so scared?"

    -The Sound of Music



    ilytpyfims
    Monday, November 13th, 2006
    9:38 am
    Can't sleep
    I saw this on one of my camper's myspace and thought it'd be interesting to see what my grade would be. And here we go...

    More than 45 and you're a bad influence! (I wonder if I'll measure up?)


    1. smoked: cigarettes make me cough. oh, yes.
    2. consumed alcohol: malibu is yummy
    3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex: ummm...let's see...have I done that?
    4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex: unfortunantly
    5. kissed someone of the same sex: a time or two ;)
    6. had sex: oh thank god yes!
    7. had someone in your room other than family: well i'm not a nun!
    8. watched porn: yup. wish i did more often.
    9. bought porn: can't say i ever did. Unless...the picture on our strap on box counts?
    10. done drugs: i've done drug. well...and that half a tab once. did that count?
    how many - 10

    1. taken painkillers: two this week
    2. taken someone else's prescription medicine: two this week. although, in my defense, i had the same perscription. i just never got it filled.
    3. lied to your parents: yes. both. i feel bad.
    4. lied to a friend: yes. I feel bad about that too.
    5. snuck out of the house: i neve had to sneak. my mom just let me go. i was a good girl. tee hee
    6. done something illegal: didn't i already answer that? i said i'd slept in the same bes with someone of the same sex. isn't that still illegal?
    7. cut yourself: not on purpose. But, yes. Damn paper cuts.
    8. hurt someone: emotionally? yes. physically? not purposefully.
    9. wished someone to die: lynn tarver. i took it back. he's still alive so it didn't work. he was my evil step dad.
    10. seen someone die: i saw someone living, i stepped outside so the nurses could care for him, and then 4 mintues later was told he was dead. i think that counts. i felt it. i saw his body there...dead and his skin was still warm.
    how many - 9

    1. missed curfew: never had one to miss
    2. stayed out all night: many times
    3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself: the pint size...fo sho! i am an ice cream expert!
    4. been to a therapist: yes. i hated it. it sucks when you go to someone for help but your brain capacity can run circles around theres. needless to say, it wasn't very helpful.
    5. been to rehab: nope.
    6. dyed your hair: yeah. not all over, but I had the bottom part pink before.
    7. received a ticket: oh yeah. and be thrown in jail twice for tickets i didn't pay. oops.
    8. been in an accident: yup. i've never been hurt in one though.
    9. been to a club: laaaaaame. yes.
    10. been to a bar: laaaaamer. yes.
    how many - 8

    1. been to a wild party: What's considered wild? i think so?
    2. seen the Mardi Gras: ummm... yeah.
    3. drank more than four beers in a night: nope. i cant honestly say i have not.
    4. had a spring break in Florida: i had a spring freak out there. does that count/
    5. sniffed anything: nail polish remover? no. nothing other than glue. hence the problems.
    6. wore black nail polish: yeah. it didn't really fit my personality at that time though.
    7. wore arm band: i think i've put cj's on before?
    8. wore t-shirts with band names: uh huh. i think that's the majority of my wardrobe.
    9. listen to rap: do i have to?!
    10. own a 50 Cent CD: hell nah!
    how many - 7

    1. dressed gothic: for halloween once
    2. dressed prep: everyday of high shool
    3. dressed punk: um hum. not in awhile though.
    4. dressed grunge: nope. That reminds me...i wasn't into kurt cobain unil much to late. :(
    5. stole something: yes. and i feel bad. do i sound like a politician yet?
    6. been too drunk to remember anything: nope
    7. blacked out: yes. damn annemia
    8. fainted: yes. damn annemia
    9. had a crush on your neighbor: my neighbor in school. jason butler. burton....butler....we sat next to each other in second grade. he was the best boyfriend ever. he never asked me to have sex with him and he walked me to the water fountain everyday.
    10. had someone sneak into your room: yes. i don't like to think about it.
    how many - 8

    1. snuck into someone else's room: why yes. yes i have.
    2. had a crush on your best friend: yeah. tee hee.
    3. been to a concert: no. well...i guess there was that one....hell yes!
    4. dry-humped someone: embarrasing as it may be...yes.
    5. been called a slut: not to my face. maybe during dirty sex? i don't know..honey? do you remember? lol
    6. called someone a slut: pretty sure. again...honey?
    7. installed speakers in your car: nope.
    8. broken a mirror: maybe? i can't remember. hey...maybe that's where all the shit luck is coming from. damnit!
    9. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.: yeah. nothing naughty though.
    10. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush: honey? haha. yes.
    how many - 8 1/2

    1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper: um...favotite rapper? i prefer the milky way wrapper...as long as the milky way is still inside of it and i can have it.
    2. seen an R-rated movie in theater: yes...see how naughty i am?
    3. cruised the mall: haha...yeah. the good ole middle school days.
    4. skipped school: yes. can you believe that? to meet two band dudes i met online.
    5. had surgery: three times.
    6. had an injury: i can't seem to go three years without breaking a foot. knock on wood.
    7. gone to court: uh huh. and daddy didn't show up. fuck daddy.
    8. walked out of a restaraunt without paying: yes. and this one i TRULY DO feel bad about. in fact...i think about it to this day. peer pressure is bullshit!
    9. caught something on fire: um hum.
    10. lied about your age: no but I'm about to start.
    how many - 8

    1. owned an apartment: i don't think i've ever owned anything except my car. sad but true.
    2. broke the law in the police's presence: um hum...the second arrest was for that very reason.
    3. cheated with someone: i kissed someone who had a girlfriend at the time. i, however, didn't know until after the fact.
    4. got in trouble with the police: how many times are you gonna bring it up. shit...kickin' a dead horse people!
    5. talked to a stranger: anybody need a ride? hehe. uh huh. sorry honey. : )are you tired of me calling you honey yet?
    6. hugged a stranger: yes. sarah lintz
    7. kissed a stranger: yes...new yrs 2000
    8. rode in the car with a stranger: hitch hikers...uh huh.
    9. been sexually harrassed: yes. moving on.
    10. been verbally harrassed: yes. moving on.
    how many - 10

    1. met face-to-face with someone you met online: i've met face to vagina with someone i met online. oh...was that too much inforh.ation?
    2. stayed online for 12 hours straight: yeah. back in the high school days.
    3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight: honey? hehe...back in the good old days. yea.
    4. watched TV for 12 hours straight: never
    5. been to a fair: yeah. cj and i went last month. fun times!
    6. been called a bad influence: i'm sure. i don't know why. as you can see...i'm completely innocent.
    7. drink and drive: maybe one or two drinks. i've never driven drunk.
    8. prank-called someone: hehe...what fun! heck yeah!
    9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex: blah blah blah. yes.
    10. cheated on a test: oh yeah. majorly!!! got caught too! MAJORLY!!!
    how many - 9

    1. cheated on homework: um hum. who didn't when susan vo was in there class? smart chick.
    2. held hands with someone of the opposite sex: wtf? yes.
    3. been pushed into a pool: yes yes and yes
    4. played pool: yeah. i like pool. i should play more. i should get better at it.
    5. watched 5 hours of MTV straight: nah.
    6. had a crush on someone 5 years older than you: yes...yuck but yes. it was disgusting.
    7. had a crush on someone younger than you: yeah. my lil' ernie. hahaha!
    8. worn eyeliner: a little. LOL!
    9. skinny-dipped: fat dippin count?
    10. laughed at a retarded person in a wheelchair: NO! What kind of sick fuckin' quiz is this?!
    how many - 8

    GRADE: 85 1/2 out of 100 ...wow....i guess i AM a bad influence. who'd a thunk it?



    YOUR TURN!
    Wednesday, November 8th, 2006
    6:42 am
    Making a Fuss Over Tom
    The stars are brighter
    the trees are greener
    this could be
    the best little place on earth

    I've spent time here
    and I'm looking around
    realizing
    how much this experience was worth

    I left that place
    knowing I'd see it again
    If only in visions
    dancing in my head

    I find those visions
    coming more quickly now
    remembering moments we laughed
    at things that he said

    This is a tale of a dear friend we lost:

    He gave what he could
    Selfishly,
    I wanted more
    for the cost

    He took a step out
    onto his Cottage porch
    and said, "I AM THE KING
    of these North Country parts!"

    and then

    he strapped on his harness
    flashed us a goofy grin
    and climbed...
    ...into all of our hearts

    I wish I could say
    nothing had changed
    But, friends
    I'd be telling a lie

    For my friend is no more
    in the flesh of this world
    but, he asked
    for us all not to cry

    So, I'll remember to celebrate
    the way that he asked
    From now on,
    when I walk down the street...

    ...I'll walk with Tom's spirit
    set deep in my heart
    and the spring of his step
    in my feet
    Tuesday, November 7th, 2006
    8:25 pm
    Makin' a Fuss over Tom
    There's something coming...i'm just getting my thoughts together. RIP Tom Fuss.
    Saturday, October 14th, 2006
    1:38 am
    x-mas list
    Feingold Messenger Bag:

    http://www.cafepress.com/buy/feingold/-/pv_design_prod/pg_1/p_storeid.14817058/pNo_14817058/id_5790165/opt_/fpt_/c_360/

    Bumper Sticker:

    http://www.cafepress.com/buy/feingold/-/pv_design_prod/p_storeid.54277081/pNo_54277081/id_12021599/opt_/pg_/c_/fpt_


    I want a digital voice recorder that I can use with my computer. I want to record songs and poetry and add reverb and beats, etc. Possibly at Best Buy?

    HOT TOPIC:

    http://www.hottopic.com/hottopic/store/product.jsp?FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=2534374302024091&PRODUCT%3C%3Eprd_id=845524442148958&bmUID=1162616857204

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    Feminist Hoodie (Black with Fuchsia writting-L): http://www.mushycat.com/shirts/RG-Feminist_1.html#5495

    "I am a work in progress" t-shirt: http://www.mushycat.com/shirts/RG-Work_1.html

    "Pretty on the inside" t-shirt: http://www.mushycat.com/shirts/RG-Shan_22.html

    "We want peace" t-shirt: http://www.mushycat.com/shirts/RG-WWP_1.html

    Political T-shirts:

    http://www.demockratees.com/flowerguns.htm

    http://www.demockratees.com/killsfascists.htm

    http://www.demockratees.com/ilovefreespeech.htm


    Victoria's Secret gift certificate


    Death Cab for Cutie:

    Forbidden Love
    You can Play These Songs with Chords
    The Photo Albumn
    We Have the Facts and We're Voting Yes
    Translanticism


    Rilo Kiley:

    Live at Fingerprints
    More Adventurous
    Execution of All Things


    Emiliana Torrini:

    Love in the Time of Science


    Imogen Heap:

    Speak for Yourself


    Frou Frou:

    Details


    The Shins:

    Oh, Inverted World


    Sleater-Kinney:

    The Hot-Rock
    All Hands on the Bad One


    Beth Orton:

    Pass In Time: Definitive Collection


    Julie Ruin:

    Julie Ruin


    Le Tigre:

    This Island
    Feminist Sweekstakes

    Sneaker Pimps:

    Becoming X


    Erin McKeown:

    Monday Morning Cold
    Grand
    Distillation
    Sing You Sinners


    Sigur Ros:

    Takk...


    Belle and Sebastian:

    The Life Persuit
    Saturday, September 30th, 2006
    11:31 pm
    27 mintues until my birthday
    I'm in a hotel bed...without Candice and it's 27 minutes until my 27th birthday. Oh...did I mention she's only 90 miles away? TORTURE! She and her mom dropped me off here last night and I've been either crying or on the verge of tears since. My gawd I miss her! FIVE MONTHS STRAIGHT TOGETHER...EVERYDAY...and now this. : ( I can't even sleep because I know she's not there. Her body heat isn't penetrating my skin. My freezing feet aren't wrapped between her warm legs. My head isn't resting on her perfect chest while my body is protected by her climber arms. Her breath isn't warm on my shoulder and her cheek isn't pressed against my forehead. I'm lost. And now...I've got to go home...and be one year older...and work on a thesis! : ( Come see me soon baby. Please. I miss you.
    Sunday, May 28th, 2006
    6:12 pm
    Sunsets
    Let me hug you, kiss you, dance around you and most of all... love you. Let me love you with all of my heart. Open your arms to me. Together, we're unstoppable. The stress is almost over and the open road is just on the other side of daylight. Drive off into the sunset with me. Forver and for always...I'll be by your side watching the sunsets come and go as we grow old together.
    Friday, April 21st, 2006
    11:45 pm
    saturday is over
    missin you more than ever.
    Wednesday, March 8th, 2006
    10:42 pm
    First Reaction
    Type your FIRST REACTION when you hear these 35 words:


    1. I need: my lady

    2. Sex: Last Friday night...WOWZERS!!!

    3. Relationships: I found my soul mate. I'm the luckiest woman alive.

    4. Your Last Ex: controling

    5. Power: That team of christian muscle heads that break cement blocks with their heads and tear telephone books with their bare hands.

    6. Marijuana: I likey.

    7. Crack: whore

    8. Food: Why does it have to be so good?!?!

    9. This President: I'm not laughing anymore

    10. War: A fabulous U2 albumn / something I couldn't be more against

    11. Car: Need a new one

    12. Gas Prices: 30 bucks to fill up my little car?!?!?!?! WTF man!

    14. Politics: I can't get enough. Give it to me intraveinously

    15. Religion: losing my (A little REM shout out)

    16. Livejournal: One thing in my life in a long line of things I've been neglecting.

    17. Worst Fear: Being strapped down to a bed while people touch my creases and let mice run free while shoving vegetable down my throat. Um...ok...that probably won't happen. Parking lots.

    18. Marriage: "between a man and a woman" (ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME??!?!?! In 2006?!?!?!)

    19. Fashion: I've got my own little thing kickin', but I don't have a traditional sense of fashion.

    20. Brunettes: gentlemen prefer blondes (marilyn shout out)

    21. Redheads: fire crotch

    22: Work: sweat shop

    23: Pass the time: thinking of her

    24: Football: soccer

    25: One night Stands: never had one

    26: Pet Peeve: not filling the potato trays

    27: Pixie Stix: candy cocaine

    28: Vanilla Ice: alright stop! collaborate and listen!

    29: Porta Potties: Candice had to use one at the carnival. yuck!
    Monday, February 27th, 2006
    8:39 am
    It's Tuesday
    She's coming! She's coming! Only one more day at the Dungeon....then she'll be here!!!
    Monday, February 13th, 2006
    10:38 am
    Royal Screw Up
    Somtimes (often times) I ROYALLY screw things up. I'm sorry.

    Happy Valentine's Day. I hope you enjoy your package.


    XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO





    ilytpyfims

    ash
    Sunday, February 12th, 2006
    11:01 pm
    Larry King is wearig a bright purple shirt and suspenders with a plaid puink and purple tie!
    I like the way that old dude dresses!

    I start guitar lessons tomorrow! WOOT

    I made a hundred and twenty bucks tonight which is good for a Monday!

    My stomache feels queezy.

    I love my girlfriend. I wish she knew how much.
    Sunday, February 5th, 2006
    5:44 pm
    What starts with "C" ends with and "O" and has an hickhag in the middle?
    CHICAGO!! Relax baby...just breathe. They're gonna love you!!! You are so wonderful at what you do!!! You'll fit right in. AND you can call me ANYTIME you want. I'll be right here waiting to hear from you! I love you baby with all of my heart! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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